Once again @owl has lifted music I have written into another space that addresses issues in beautiful and thought provoking ways. Apparently she threw the first version out, but when we talked last night still was planning on having another go. And this was waiting for me in my inbox this today. Amazing. One of the things I love about writing with Owl is that her beautiful voice can give her wonderfully written lyrics another level of calm, that makes you relax and perhaps not dig into the underlying message until later. A perfect example of this would be the album that she did with @vomvorton as Vowl Sounds (HIGHLY recommended). I listened through that album at least twice before I paused, read the lyrics and had a big "Hang on for a second..." moment. It is SO good. And this song is no exception.
Thank you so much for continuing to write music with me - I appreciate it so much!
lyrics
Believing, I keep believing, I keep believing this is a zero-sum game
Feeling, I've got a feeling, a stupid feeling your happiness takes mine away
And so I smile, pretend to smile for the things you did
I'm not as big as you think
Not as big as you think I am
Turns out my jealousy is hard to tame
Pulling at its leash to lunge into my face
Threatened, I think I'm threatened, seems like I'm threatened by how amazing you are
They say that we're in the gutter but only some of us are looking up at the stars
Or are we lobsters in a bucket trying to pull each other down from the lid
I'm not as big as you think
Not as big as you think I am
Turns out my jealousy is hard to tame
Pulling at its leash to lunge into my face
Petty, I think I'm petty, I guess I'm petty for feeling shitty and mean
Pretty, you're just so pretty, and just so popular, so much more talented than me
I've got Schaden-fucking-freude, you're such a nice girl, such a lovable thing
I'm not as big as you think
Not as big as you think I am
Turns out my jealousy is hard to tame
Pulling at its leash to lunge into my face
And even though I tried to be
As kind as you've always been
Turns out my jealousy's a wild beast
Ripping out my lungs for its unholy feast
I'm not as big as you think I am
I'm not as big as you think I am
credits
from 2021,
released April 24, 2021
ZeCoop: acoustic guitars, cajon, glockenspiel, shakers
Owl: lyrics, vocals
I love playing music and keep learning new instruments. My songs are in a wide range of styles, from indie-rock to surf, to
folk to rock to electronic... I never know. I record at home in a studio I put together in a spare room. I work (via the web) with a lot of vocal/lyric collaborators from all over the world.
Recorded on the Grecian isle of Hydra, this is blissed-out psych pop with stacked falsetto harmonies and luscious arrangements. Bandcamp New & Notable Apr 9, 2023
Two dozen 12-string acoustic improvisations that feel undeniably haunting, like lost transmissions from ancient Appalachia, rediscovered. Bandcamp New & Notable Oct 17, 2022